Now, one of the things that has always fascinated me is the huge differences between the experiences of immortality and mortality. And certainly, Tolkien’s choices in his works have something to do with my outlook. But I was always left feeling that he had not resolved the matter of what happened when an Elf had his or her body destroyed in some fashion. It wasn’t clear in Tolkien: there apparently was some sort of “reincarnation”, but it was not clear how it worked.
( So what does "Immortality" mean? )
I have to say that it is really, really tempting to explain the specifics of what this idea is, because the way it fits in with the story is very satisfying. But, because I think it will make a particular moment in the story even more emotionally powerful, I don't want to spoil the surprise.
But I do want to talk about it generally.
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Anyway, after finishing chapter 14, I started feeling anxious about the flow of the story.
You have to understand, most of the first part of the book was written years ago. Then I got stuck at a major point. Once I got past that point, I started moving into "new" parts of the story. New in the sense that I haven't had it on the page before. I've been thinking about the rest of the story a lot, but that's not the same thing as living with it on the page.
On top of that, it has been quite a while since I read the work straight through, the way a reader would. I've reread sections, to refresh myself about character attitudes and discussions. I've reread chapters doing revisions, correcting typos and tweaking sentences. But all that is not reading the work for the story.
So, I decided that to help me move forward into the next chapter, and to find out if chapter 14 really is as "slow" as I was thinking it was, I needed to reread the whole to myself. I'm reading it out loud.
The first thing that surprised me was that it really DOES move along nicely. All these years, I'd been concerned by the first three chapters -- there are a lot of characters and relationships being introduced. I'd wondered if they were slow. Happily they are not. I'm now up to chapter 10.
The main thing that struck me about doing this is how easily I can get removed from a sense of the whole when I'm working on the immediate portion of the story. Yes, the "Big Picture" of the story sits there in the background, holding everything together. But the nature and quality of the work previously done becomes almost invisible, because I'm so focused on making the immediate portion work.
Another thing that struck me is that in the years since I began the story, my skills as a critic and editor have grown a lot. And it pleases me to exercise those skills on my own work, and find that ... it is not bad stuff. (Okay, I know every writer thinks that of their own work - we wouldn't be able to do it otherwise. But I do feel the work is "good enough".)
These are encouraging things to find. They energize me to keep going. When I have lots of projects on my slate, all in various stages of "production", it is too easy to get discouraged and shift to something else. And I really want to finish this book at long last. Reading the work aloud to myself is helping me keep on track for that.
Or would it be creative archeology?
The last couple of weeks I've been transferring information from two notebooks into a program on my computer. Now, that might sound rather innocuous at the start, but it is, in fact, nit-picking and time-consuming.
You see, back in the dark ages, when I was in high school, I got inspired by J.R.R. Tolkien. I had been doing some writing prior to reading Tolkien, but his works delivered that extra "umph" that really got me going in writing. I began a fantasy novel -- which I did eventually finish after I had graduated! I even submitted it over the transom to Ballantine Books. Thank God, it was rejected. I believe it is buried somewhere in one of my boxes of papers that have never been unpacked since I moved to California. But I did finish it.
Still... in the back of my mind, I've been mulling over a minor problem. What shall I call my created world? Tolkien called his "Middle-earth", but mine... isn't "middle" anything.
